For M.

My friend's husband ended his own life earlier this month. It would be simple for someone to lose themselves in the 'why' of that statement, but I don't want to. And not only because it's a question that can't ever be answered, but because there are things so much more important—right now, in this moment—to wonder about. I wonder, for example, how my friend managed to stand up in front of a packed church today and convince every one of us that she and her three young children are blessed. I wonder where strength comes from when it doesn't seem possible that there's any more in reserve. I wonder where that strength will take her in the days and months ahead. But mostly I am sitting here full of wonder. At my extraordinary friend.